P.T.S.I.

               P.T.S.I. 

Why do the bad things stick to my mind
So many good things in my lifetime
I been down, now I’m raised up
The God in me wouldn’t let me give up

Yep I been there before
Pain so bad, hurt me to the core
Behind closed doors
I spent most nights knelt on floor 

Pushed them all away
By myself is where I like to stay
If I flash back I won’t hurt nobody
Get my glass pour me some Bacardi 

When I’m up I’m down when I’m down I’m up
I can’t figure me out
I been through too much
I’m on overload, I’m about overdose
You already know PTSI is my diagnoses

Nighttime is the worse time
Crazy thoughts run through my mind
Too scared to sleep
PTSI got control of me
Don’t hit my trigger
Might act up if on the liquor

I can’t let it go
My minds at war
And I’m about to blow

I kept trying to get what can’t be got
The old me gone like or not
I’m what life made me but I wanna change
I’m sick I’m tired I can’t live this way 

New face to you but to me he’s the one
The one that wants to kill me so my hands on my gun
I can’t be in crowds cause I wont see him come
Living life like an outlaw on the run
I made that phone call that changed my life
WCPR made me all right

JFU, if you went you know
What you waiting for, trust me go
It won’t be easy, 6 months of therapy in one week
Is crazy but the s…. amazing
You deserve to live so get your seat
At West Coast Post Trauma Retreat

Nighttime is the worse time
Crazy thoughts run through my mind
Too scared to sleep
PTSI got control of me

Don’t hit my trigger
Might act up if on the liquor

I can’t let it go
My minds at war
And I’m about to blow

First step, Angwin California
It’s a safe place, no need to warn you
Leave your guns at home, turn off your phone
I’m a let you know man, you are not alone
Table for 7 but it’s all about you

Everybody there just like you
Late nights no sleep
Feeling tired feeling weak
To empty your box you got to open it up
Talk about what’s been holding u up
Keeping you from living the life you deserve
Yes sir you got to put in work 

Pain tears, face your fears
I been holding this bull.… in for years
I’m tired of struggling, the pain is real
Its time to fix me, it’s time to heal